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First of all.. is xanga even cool anymore?? haha.. oh well.. i like to write... so I will.. Life just got even busier, but, for the first time in my life, i'm able to accept that without stress. Mock trial practice 3 times a week, debate, forensics, Latin and Trig, piano, and now tennis. Not to mention monthly crown club meetings and my old girl scouts. This was my choice, and i'm happy with it. I'm not going to treat tennis like every other activity I have; I want to do it strictly for fun, not for bettering myself. I'm really excited. I'll get to spend time with lots of friends while excercising and tennissing!Yay!

I'm soooo ready for formal.. but.. ugh.. I hate the whole date process... I have had past experiences, and dates are not fun at all unless it's with someone you actually Like like like.. not just as a friend. I have a dress I may wear.. but i'm not positive yet. It's black and strapless with a green and silver.. it's really pretty, but, I don't know if I'll be wearing it...

I got a migraine this morning.. it made me sad. it hurt.

I  Love you!!!!!

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   Ok.. so it's been FOREVER since I"ve been on.. like half a year.. literally. I guess there's alot to say..but, in a way,there isn't much at all. I'm still single.. yeah, there have been opportunities, but I have refused to settle for them, as always. I'm just particular. My friends are great. Lately one of my best friends is Emily Green.. or Emy.. my cuz/buddy.. she gets me lol. I need some more xanga friends... so plz suscribe.  I also need comments! so comment away. Lately, all I have been doing is writing essays, watching movies, reading, and eating. I have been pretty lazy.. but it feels good. Remember, I heart you!!!  <me and sam at a forensics tourney <me and baby sister <me and my big Sissy Me, Emy, and laura lee

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It's done.. it's gone.. it' over.

The tears I shed aren't about him anymore.

I loved him.. i hated him.. he broke my heart.

But I've learned to accept that and be thankful for it.

What brought about this change in me?

Something I should have done in the first place..

Forgiveness.

Because if you love someone, all you want is for THEM to be happy, regardless of how you feel.

Goodbye my lover.

I forgive you forever.

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So, school is amazing this year. I have a little bit of a challenge<CHEMISTRY>.. but i LOVE it with a passion.. as nerdy as this sounds.. i'm disappointed when we don't have homework.. yeah i'm lame i know.

I'm already anticipating homecoming and formal and prom!AH! If you know me, then you KNOW I LOVE to dance.. and get all prettied up haha..

There's this guy i kind of life but i'm not sure if i can totally trust him.. i guess i'll take it reAlly slow and see how God leads me..

I'm really trying to be close to God... He has my entire heart, and I want to keep it that way...

AS you probably know, I love playing psycologist, so please tell me your probles haha.. i love to help people..

He no longer consumes all my thoughts

Yet I know, he'll always be near.

He hides in my poems, my music,my writing.

He'll stay in my mind, soul, and tears.

I long to tell him how I feel, how I felt.

But I know that if I let it out, everything will be worse than before.

But, then again, How could it be worse?

After all , it only can get better from here.

I loved him, He'll always be near. he's in my heart; he's in this tear.

School is so close...and i'm kinda ready..it scares me how fast time flies, though. It seems as if every year is so much quicker than the one before. Time is the scariest thing...

Summer was great this year, though.. i got to be better friends with some people, got a suntan.. ok a sunburn.., learned about life.. and love.. and God..

I hope this year is happy,even though i know all my activities will bring unlimited stress.. atleast i know now that without a little relaxation every day, I will breakdown. Life is too short not to stop and smell the roses SLOWLY every day.

Have a great school year you guys. I 'm always here for you.